the sun's gone dim and the sky's turned black

alright so what's gonna happen is, for the next few hours, i'm gonna leave this Create Post page open. and i'm gonna type out whatever comes to mind. why? i'm going to exercise my writing skills. gotta get that english mark up. so i'm gonna be blogging more frequently. or at least i'll try. gotta get comfortable with writing a lot.

so as you may know, i have decided not to switch my english and religion to second and third periods, respectively. Ms. Bilan is frickin' awesome, my religion class is small (small classes ftw), and i'm going to put up with mr. marentette's bullshit. gonna make the best out of the class (ie. make fun of him 24/7 lol). "what are the jonas brothers?" rofl

hm, it fucking sucks when you get home and then you find out that you were wrong. ruined my day, but whatever. i feel like shit right now. like, fuck, how far can you take stupidity? pretty disappointing. i'm not feeling extremely down though. when such happens, i even begin to think grisly and macabre thoughts. sometimes even suicidal, but i don't actually inflict self-harm. only thoughts.

piano recital was fucking shit on my behalf, mainly because that song i played is fucking gay. watching some amazing performers makes me realize that i need to sit my ass down at the piano and PLAY. fuck. i know it sounds kinda cocky, and i hate to say it, but being an even more amazing pianist is really within my grasp. i just have to commit to it. damn. i was at my lesson following the recital, and my teacher was showing me the most inspiring creativity that i could ever fathom. i immediately thought "fuck yeah, teach me that shit. that's what i want to get into." and behold, my future goal in extracurricular music.

speaking of commitment, i jumped back into p90x. not gonna elaborate much, it's just that i'm pretty happy i'm doing it. again.

wow fuck i really need to get better at piano.

so yeah school isn't so much of a drag anymore. i'm liking this semester a lot (...more than the previous?). physics is gonna be sorta tough, but it's really interesting. world religions is so much more fucking better than that one-sided catholic education shit. that sounds bad, yeah, but i guess that shows how much i really didn't enjoy grade 9 and 10 religion. it's day 4 and world religions has already opened my mind up to every other religion. speaking of which, i've even been pondering the questions regarding my own faith. it's terrible to even think of or mention, but i feel that my faith is slowly declining. ._.

in english class, i included in my I Am poem that "The human race is faulty." pessimist, really? hey, i have my reasons. let me begin by stating the disastrous and most gruesome, war. maybe not war specifically, but generally conflict. it's really stupid, since creating conflict can only lead to more and more of it. i guess we, the human race, have learned and adapted to a miraculous concept entitled "resolution", but really, is the trouble worth going through? sounds cliche, but, "why couldn't we all just get along?" ... lol gay. but i always think about this when war breaks out in other parts of the world. like shit, hundreds of thousands of millions of people have died in wars. useless, yeah?

i'm getting sick of mainstream music (save for some artists). thank goodness for the underground.

i'm just really not into it today. i will be alive, well, and running tomorrow. catch ya later.