in love with an apparition

in his nightmare
black rain fell
and clogged their first kiss
now suffocating
she dies in his arms
now their love is a floating ghost
as she turns into ashes
and the wind ssend her crumbling
into the setting sun...
her love was a vampire



(no Twilight intended)

pursue

it is the weeks before
and my heart is heavy; overburdened with doubt

it is now
and i am almost at realization.

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Camp Pursue -- a grandiose success!

as Josh once mentioned, a certainly enriching experience indeed.



i was almost driven to tears as i miss all of them. reminiscing of all the clothed homosexual practices, funny events. the enlightenings, spiritual connections, spiritual growth. the friendships made, the friendships expanded. the neverending happiness.

but i was also almost driven to tears when i missed YOU GUYS D:<

condemned to nothingness

i remember that one time when my legs were paralyzed.
i ran for hours on end the previous day, my mind free from any of its surroundings.
and i also bled. a lot. a white shirt turned red, like submerging it into wine.
with crawling as the only means of travel,
i collapse desperately.

true story ololololol!
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i've been reading Life of Pi a bit recently, and i predict it to be one of the stepping stones for my, um, self-proclaimed "religious journey" or "religious pondering". now this doesn't necessarily mean that you'll find me at the end of life's road as a priest; rather, i've been inquiring many questions about (my) faith (such great timing, isn't it? with camp coming up soon...).

i have a load of shit to worry about in the upcoming days. music ministry band practices, a ton of physics studying, lunar lander-assembling, piano practicing. that's a lot man. i hope i can get through this week and have a successful weekend.

speaking of physics, goddamn, i think i wasted ~1hr last night "reading" about cosmology, theoretical physics, and quantum mechanics that i barely understand but found to be very very very very interesting. it was like reading an incomprehensible language, but i was so immersed in its intellectual beauty. such scientifical topics pose some serious cerebellum-tingling questions. it's amazing. have i blogged about this before? i'm pretty sure i have. lol.

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wow i can barely even fucking talk to you, so just continue to treat me like your fucking peasant.






cheesin' me

interrupting cow

LMAO

snow

Main Entry:

¹snow

Pronunciation:

\ˈsnō\

Function:

noun

Usage:

often attributive

Etymology:

Middle English, from Old English snāw; akin to Old High German snēo snow, Latin niv-, nix, Greek nipha (accusative)

Date:

before 12th century

1 a: precipitation in the form of small white ice crystals formed directly from the water vapor of the air at a temperature of less than 32°F (0°C) b (1): a descent or shower of snow crystals (2): a mass of fallen snow crystals
2: something resembling snow: as a: a dessert made of stiffly beaten whites of eggs, sugar, and fruit pulp snow> b: a usually white crystalline substance that condenses from a fluid phase as snow does snow> c slang (1): cocaine (2): heroin d: small transient light or dark spots on a television screen

— snow·less \-ləs\ adjective

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