anticipating an end

an entrepreneur starts a business with the slightest bit of doubt. his business collapses.
a group of people decide to start a band with the slightest bit of doubt. their band doesn't make it big. what if God created the Earth with the slightest bit of doubt?

my friend asked me, "will you love and care for her till the time comes when it finishes?" and such a question pissed me off. it hurt to think about "the end". yes, endings happen. but what's the point of thinking about it? maybe i sound like a pretentious little fool. but i'm going to live it out to its fullest. i'm going to cherish it.

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p.s. wow it feels really gay writing this out, like my diary or something. oh well