so,

there's this thing

called a yorkshire terrier











AND I REALLY WANT ONE D:

hymn to freedom

and in the spring, 2003, he looked at me. and i knew, that he knew, who i was. and then he closed his eyes, as if to go to sleep.

benjamin button: amazing film. go see it.

guillotine (swordz)

POISONOUS PARAGRAPHS SMASH THA PHONOGRAPH IN HALF, IT BE THA INSPECTAH DECK FROM THA WARPATH

blankets of night

i'm calling it a night, but that doesn't mean i'm ready.
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aftermath: LOL that was soft

when one side of the mirror diverges from the other

i had a good weekend.

friday was fun. went to chey's after school, chilled, went to mike's, chilled, went out to the movies with jestine mike josh t and dino to watch Yes Man (which was quite good). lawl there were these white cracker jack fucks sitting behind us in the theatre. they were funny. following the film, we raided the deserted and void Sobeys on Dundas, late night. then we got Subway and ate at Tim Horton's. yeah.

on saturday i bowled well. better than i have these past couple of months. went to costco (lolol) after, then we went downtown to visit my dad's family friend, since she recently had a baby (who is pretty much the cutest thing ever. sorry steph. ............. j/k :D). after that, dino and i reached choir practice. fun times.

today. epic. played in choir for the 11:00 mass. dino had two extreme epic failures (he plays piano for the choir now). they were hilarious. then our family went out and ate some phở. mmmmmmm phở. loafted for most of the afternoon, and now here i am blogging and finishing up some biology. oh yeah i also selected my grade 12 courses today. they are as follows: english, music, philosophy, calculus, functions, bio, chem, and physics. this is only tentative though, since i want a spare and i want a social science course (families or society).

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well shit, that's just kinda weird. but i'm okay with it. i think. i just hope that you know.

sorry, but we don't hear you

i possess an ancient artifact of the institute. they look at me like i'm an alien.

you have terrible conversational skills.

i wish it wasn't mandatory, but it is.

you're getting annoying.

and you too.

but i don't think you know.

i am a pirate carrying material worth millions of dollars.

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so exams are upcoming, and quite frankly i am terrified. not because of all my subjects, but just biologay really. rofl. it sucks. i didn't really enjoy bio as much as i could, and on top of that my mark is gradually falling (although still tolerable). i wish biology wasn't required for pharmacy courses. and according to mr. kim, 4U bio is even harder and more demanding. crap.

but yeah, chem is going to be fairly easy (jajajaja serafini), math will be a breeze, and anthro.... um, LAWL

DJ Slice has returned. but that is not his artist name anymore. he is now identified as Square Tire. he's been beatsmithing since fall of 2008 and is quite satisfied with his progress. his influences and styles have vastly increased since his 2008 debut, "The Amazing Incredible Music Experience". idm, drum'n'bass, chillout, and complex electronic music in general have always been favourites of his, but he has since explored and looked into minimal techno, ambient techno, glitch, ambient, and dubstep. here's a sample of his work (off-the-hook dubstep beat).

endzeit elegy

i've had eczema for my whole life. yeah, you know. lol.

and sometimes it gets really bad.

sometimes i scratch myself uncontrollably.
sometimes i look in the mirror to view the work.
it's disastrous.
sometimes it gets so bad.

half of my carcass is swollen. it's okay though, since it's only hives.
but sometimes, it's even more than half.

gross, i know. but sometimes, i keep going at it.
sometimes with increasing force.
sometimes i dig through the surface.
gold? no.
sometimes i tear away at the carapace.
with these nails, developed for the execution.
sometimes i peer through the incisions.
what lies beneath?
sometimes i cut a little more thoroughly.
just to see what's inside.

it is exposed.

sometimes i fix it up.
sometimes i place the wires in their rightful spots.
although routinely, it all falls apart.

but sometimes, nothing is present. nothing is visible.
an empty void. complete nullity.

sometimes i tape it all up so nobody notices.
but sometimes i run out of tape.
sometimes i panic. everyone will see.

and so, the piercings are there. the openings. the lacerations. the marks. the wounds. they are dry, and they are lifeless.

not one drop of blood.

they remain for me to remember,

there is nothing.

gloomy sunday

sunday is gloomy, my hours are slumberless
dearest the shadows, i live with the numberless
little white flowers will never awaken you
not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you
angels have no thought of ever returning you
would they be angry, if i thought of joining you?

gloomy sunday, with shadows i spend it all
my heart and i have decided to end it all
soon there'll be candles, and prayers that are said, i know
let them not weep, let them know that i'm glad to go
death is no dream, for in death i'm caressin' you
with the last breath of my soul, i'll be blessin' you

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Dear Israelis and Palestinians,


Stop.


Sincerely,
Kevin

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the day was fine, i look at the computer time
eleven fifty-nine, and it's time to sign...
out of the internet, so i disconnect
before my brain and eyes get fried like an omelette
then the dearest one walks quickly into the room
with something important to tell me, i presume
"i think i need to let you know, about what's affecting the area of my loins
it's been botherin' me for three years, and it's a disturbing pain in the groin
this might hurt ya, but i've gotta turn to ya
and update your mind with the fact that i've got a hernia"
and i thought "no, no, no", why you gotta break this news to me
i really hoped you were just fakin' it, truthfully
sat there in shock while he was explainin'
couldn't say nothing, but deep inside i was cryin' like it was rainin'
"i'm pretty sure i've got this condition; it's 100% sure of me
i might need to see a doctor 'cuz i'll be needing surgery"
stayed quiet, but it really worried me
i just hoped everything would turn out positively
went to sleep thinkin' about his problem
all i could do was pray to God for him.