i'm locking myself up

to achieve nothing

to lose everything

i guess i kinda like you because you seem to not care about me

but... no. lol

back to my loser life lol

fuck everything


just so fucking sick of trying

i guess it was only a dream. but i did fall in love with you.

i like you because you really hurt me.

you really hurt me because i like you.

i'm just not myself anymore lol.

i've planned out my death though. i'll do it where i died emotionally and mentally and all that other shit. better yet if i could just cut off all my limbs and put them in all those place lmao idk.

there is no doubt that i am being directly influenced by stream-of-consciouness punctuation-less capital-letter-less misanthropic african-american bloggers who enjoy hip-hop basketball and menswear. yeah idk. unoriginal.

social suicide.... complete

am i dead yet?

no?

k back to sleep

fuck.