we are all just hypocrites. wrong and faultful. life is bliss until that moment when you turn around and look back.

the million mocking eyes.

punk rock music should mean freedom... liking and accepting anything that you like, playing whatever you want, as sloppy as you want... as long as it’s good and has passion.

brilliant corners

千と千尋の神隠し Sen to Chihiro no kamikakushi...

spectacular movie

as far as you can throw me

in the midst of all this intellectual chaos...

let's blog!

so right now i'm caught up in all this work. i would like to blame mr. j. marentette for this unbearable load of writing, and less specifically, homework. you might think that procrastination is to blame for this pile-up... but not really, since mr. marentette spontaneously handed out like 79 assignments, scheduled an upcoming quiz, as well as Life of Pi questions.

and to think that shit gets worse towards exam time? T_T

on a brighter note, the weekend was quite spectacular. maybe not so much sunday, but friday and saturday were great. on friday, me mike jestine chey and dino reached dixie park (eastgate mall) and took out some incomprehensibly delectable ching chong food, then we went to go eat at josh's with erros. then i think i loaftplayedrestaurant cityfor a while. then i slept for the following long day.

woke up the next morning, kinda late. my parents dropped chewie off at our veterinarian's receptionist. then we headed off to st. catharines. got there at like 9, mossed around for a bit at the bowling alley, then bowled my first 3 games of the day (6 more to go). after those games, dino and i ate in the car for a bit, then we bowled another 3 games. after that set, we drove to niagara (not the falls) to go shopping, w00t. went to some outlet mall, and dino and i bought some jeans, hoodies, and shirts. blew off ~$150. prior to shopping, my mother dearest lended $100 each to me and dino, and we were like "lol k this is going straight to our bank accounts..." but we kid, we kid. so after the purchases, we fell hungry for japanese cuisine. we drove a little further down Lundy's Lane and ended up at niagara falls, trying to find this one japanese restaurant, given misleading directions by mrs. GPS. we gave up because we couldn't find it. so one of us recalled seeing this other restaurant somewhere back there...

*separate paragraph* IHOP. holy fucking shit fuck shit that is one of the fucking greatest restaurants to ever exist. fuck. shit. although i was slightly disappointed by my order of "french toast" (which tasted exactly like a Tim Horton's fritter), they have some of the most fucking scrumptious nourishment. dino and i shared 4 stacked strawberry-banana pancakes (strawberries & strawberry sauce on top, slices of banana cooked in between the pancakes). fuck me. it was amazing. my mom had spinach crepes, my dad had straight-up pancakes. damn. thank god for an IHOP in canada. international house of mo'fuckin' pancakes mayne.

after that we went back to st. cats to bowl our last 3 games, which turned out to be very boring. i developed a headache some time during that.

bowling is not an olympic sport because you do not need to be athletically fit to bowl.

left for home at around 10, then arrived at our animal caretaker to get chewie at around 10:45. goddamn, she's pro with pets. she has 13 puppies, but we only saw 5 of them. they were tiny, it was amazing. uhhhhhhhh then we headed home and hit the haaaaaaaaaaay.

mother's day wasn't much, i just played geeeetar in the church choir and then went home and did homework. my parents went out to some show with filipino singers. when they got back, dino, my dad and i presented our cards to mommy (it's our tradition).



anyways, that was a nice mild stress reliever. too bad you probably won't get this far because of the excruciating length.

back to the madness.



dare to dream

in love with an apparition

in his nightmare
black rain fell
and clogged their first kiss
now suffocating
she dies in his arms
now their love is a floating ghost
as she turns into ashes
and the wind ssend her crumbling
into the setting sun...
her love was a vampire



(no Twilight intended)

pursue

it is the weeks before
and my heart is heavy; overburdened with doubt

it is now
and i am almost at realization.

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Camp Pursue -- a grandiose success!

as Josh once mentioned, a certainly enriching experience indeed.



i was almost driven to tears as i miss all of them. reminiscing of all the clothed homosexual practices, funny events. the enlightenings, spiritual connections, spiritual growth. the friendships made, the friendships expanded. the neverending happiness.

but i was also almost driven to tears when i missed YOU GUYS D:<

condemned to nothingness

i remember that one time when my legs were paralyzed.
i ran for hours on end the previous day, my mind free from any of its surroundings.
and i also bled. a lot. a white shirt turned red, like submerging it into wine.
with crawling as the only means of travel,
i collapse desperately.

true story ololololol!
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i've been reading Life of Pi a bit recently, and i predict it to be one of the stepping stones for my, um, self-proclaimed "religious journey" or "religious pondering". now this doesn't necessarily mean that you'll find me at the end of life's road as a priest; rather, i've been inquiring many questions about (my) faith (such great timing, isn't it? with camp coming up soon...).

i have a load of shit to worry about in the upcoming days. music ministry band practices, a ton of physics studying, lunar lander-assembling, piano practicing. that's a lot man. i hope i can get through this week and have a successful weekend.

speaking of physics, goddamn, i think i wasted ~1hr last night "reading" about cosmology, theoretical physics, and quantum mechanics that i barely understand but found to be very very very very interesting. it was like reading an incomprehensible language, but i was so immersed in its intellectual beauty. such scientifical topics pose some serious cerebellum-tingling questions. it's amazing. have i blogged about this before? i'm pretty sure i have. lol.

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wow i can barely even fucking talk to you, so just continue to treat me like your fucking peasant.






cheesin' me

interrupting cow

LMAO

snow

Main Entry:

¹snow

Pronunciation:

\ˈsnō\

Function:

noun

Usage:

often attributive

Etymology:

Middle English, from Old English snāw; akin to Old High German snēo snow, Latin niv-, nix, Greek nipha (accusative)

Date:

before 12th century

1 a: precipitation in the form of small white ice crystals formed directly from the water vapor of the air at a temperature of less than 32°F (0°C) b (1): a descent or shower of snow crystals (2): a mass of fallen snow crystals
2: something resembling snow: as a: a dessert made of stiffly beaten whites of eggs, sugar, and fruit pulp snow> b: a usually white crystalline substance that condenses from a fluid phase as snow does snow> c slang (1): cocaine (2): heroin d: small transient light or dark spots on a television screen

— snow·less \-ləs\ adjective

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