as far as you can throw me

in the midst of all this intellectual chaos...

let's blog!

so right now i'm caught up in all this work. i would like to blame mr. j. marentette for this unbearable load of writing, and less specifically, homework. you might think that procrastination is to blame for this pile-up... but not really, since mr. marentette spontaneously handed out like 79 assignments, scheduled an upcoming quiz, as well as Life of Pi questions.

and to think that shit gets worse towards exam time? T_T

on a brighter note, the weekend was quite spectacular. maybe not so much sunday, but friday and saturday were great. on friday, me mike jestine chey and dino reached dixie park (eastgate mall) and took out some incomprehensibly delectable ching chong food, then we went to go eat at josh's with erros. then i think i loaftplayedrestaurant cityfor a while. then i slept for the following long day.

woke up the next morning, kinda late. my parents dropped chewie off at our veterinarian's receptionist. then we headed off to st. catharines. got there at like 9, mossed around for a bit at the bowling alley, then bowled my first 3 games of the day (6 more to go). after those games, dino and i ate in the car for a bit, then we bowled another 3 games. after that set, we drove to niagara (not the falls) to go shopping, w00t. went to some outlet mall, and dino and i bought some jeans, hoodies, and shirts. blew off ~$150. prior to shopping, my mother dearest lended $100 each to me and dino, and we were like "lol k this is going straight to our bank accounts..." but we kid, we kid. so after the purchases, we fell hungry for japanese cuisine. we drove a little further down Lundy's Lane and ended up at niagara falls, trying to find this one japanese restaurant, given misleading directions by mrs. GPS. we gave up because we couldn't find it. so one of us recalled seeing this other restaurant somewhere back there...

*separate paragraph* IHOP. holy fucking shit fuck shit that is one of the fucking greatest restaurants to ever exist. fuck. shit. although i was slightly disappointed by my order of "french toast" (which tasted exactly like a Tim Horton's fritter), they have some of the most fucking scrumptious nourishment. dino and i shared 4 stacked strawberry-banana pancakes (strawberries & strawberry sauce on top, slices of banana cooked in between the pancakes). fuck me. it was amazing. my mom had spinach crepes, my dad had straight-up pancakes. damn. thank god for an IHOP in canada. international house of mo'fuckin' pancakes mayne.

after that we went back to st. cats to bowl our last 3 games, which turned out to be very boring. i developed a headache some time during that.

bowling is not an olympic sport because you do not need to be athletically fit to bowl.

left for home at around 10, then arrived at our animal caretaker to get chewie at around 10:45. goddamn, she's pro with pets. she has 13 puppies, but we only saw 5 of them. they were tiny, it was amazing. uhhhhhhhh then we headed home and hit the haaaaaaaaaaay.

mother's day wasn't much, i just played geeeetar in the church choir and then went home and did homework. my parents went out to some show with filipino singers. when they got back, dino, my dad and i presented our cards to mommy (it's our tradition).



anyways, that was a nice mild stress reliever. too bad you probably won't get this far because of the excruciating length.

back to the madness.



dare to dream

in love with an apparition

in his nightmare
black rain fell
and clogged their first kiss
now suffocating
she dies in his arms
now their love is a floating ghost
as she turns into ashes
and the wind ssend her crumbling
into the setting sun...
her love was a vampire



(no Twilight intended)

pursue

it is the weeks before
and my heart is heavy; overburdened with doubt

it is now
and i am almost at realization.

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Camp Pursue -- a grandiose success!

as Josh once mentioned, a certainly enriching experience indeed.



i was almost driven to tears as i miss all of them. reminiscing of all the clothed homosexual practices, funny events. the enlightenings, spiritual connections, spiritual growth. the friendships made, the friendships expanded. the neverending happiness.

but i was also almost driven to tears when i missed YOU GUYS D:<

condemned to nothingness

i remember that one time when my legs were paralyzed.
i ran for hours on end the previous day, my mind free from any of its surroundings.
and i also bled. a lot. a white shirt turned red, like submerging it into wine.
with crawling as the only means of travel,
i collapse desperately.

true story ololololol!
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i've been reading Life of Pi a bit recently, and i predict it to be one of the stepping stones for my, um, self-proclaimed "religious journey" or "religious pondering". now this doesn't necessarily mean that you'll find me at the end of life's road as a priest; rather, i've been inquiring many questions about (my) faith (such great timing, isn't it? with camp coming up soon...).

i have a load of shit to worry about in the upcoming days. music ministry band practices, a ton of physics studying, lunar lander-assembling, piano practicing. that's a lot man. i hope i can get through this week and have a successful weekend.

speaking of physics, goddamn, i think i wasted ~1hr last night "reading" about cosmology, theoretical physics, and quantum mechanics that i barely understand but found to be very very very very interesting. it was like reading an incomprehensible language, but i was so immersed in its intellectual beauty. such scientifical topics pose some serious cerebellum-tingling questions. it's amazing. have i blogged about this before? i'm pretty sure i have. lol.

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wow i can barely even fucking talk to you, so just continue to treat me like your fucking peasant.






cheesin' me

interrupting cow

LMAO

snow

Main Entry:

¹snow

Pronunciation:

\ˈsnō\

Function:

noun

Usage:

often attributive

Etymology:

Middle English, from Old English snāw; akin to Old High German snēo snow, Latin niv-, nix, Greek nipha (accusative)

Date:

before 12th century

1 a: precipitation in the form of small white ice crystals formed directly from the water vapor of the air at a temperature of less than 32°F (0°C) b (1): a descent or shower of snow crystals (2): a mass of fallen snow crystals
2: something resembling snow: as a: a dessert made of stiffly beaten whites of eggs, sugar, and fruit pulp snow> b: a usually white crystalline substance that condenses from a fluid phase as snow does snow> c slang (1): cocaine (2): heroin d: small transient light or dark spots on a television screen

— snow·less \-ləs\ adjective

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WHYYYYYY?????

men gnawed their tongues in agony

yo i like this semester a lot.

it's got physics, which, while not at this current stage, will eventually tie into cosmology. cosmology is sick. and cosmology also has ties with philosophy. sickest things ever. speaking of philosophy, i was reading up about that "if a tree falls in a forest and no one is there to hear it, does it make a sound" business. i love that kind of philosophical thought. you may say that it makes a sound, but who is there to prove it? etc etc. and in a more general sense, "can something exist without being perceived?" what a sick question. that one makes me think a lot. not gonna elaborate much on that since my views/opinions are still primitive, full of flaws. lol

there's also world religions, and none of that one-sided christian education bullshit. i feel that my mind is now so much more open-minded, thanks to this grade 11 course. the grade 9 and 10 religion courses (i think "christian" courses is a more fitting name) were probably the most boring courses in my high school history.

mr. marentette isn't the slightest bit interesting, but the english language sure is. the language, not the course. free writing is something i like to do, although i wouldn't do it every day. practicing writing creativity is fun.

music.... ololololol

it's kinda like a puzzle. with a million pieces. i have all of the pieces, but i just need to know how to put them together. it'll take a while, but the end result will definitely be rewarding. now where do i start...

here is a title just for the sake of making it easier for you to get to this entry when it shows up in your updated blogs list

but i really do not think that this title will show up in your updated blogs list because i added this title after i had posted this entry which initially had no title and so therefore this title is completely superfluous and negligible as you did not click it to get to this entry in the first place and instead you clicked on "Tired Mind" in your updated blogs list which took you to this page and now you are reading some random bullshit that kevin felt like writing because it made him feel clever that he involved the entry title with the entry also connecting with the usage of blogger by other users which is totally irrelevant to the following picture which is a graphical representation of kevins personality traits which was developed by mypersonality.info which is a website where people can take personality tests to find out more about themselves which is stupid because people should know who they are in the first place and they should not use an internet personality test website to find out who they are oh and also i used this font because i am so smart and it looks like this is part of the title but it is not because if you try and type a title that is as long as this then blogger will not accept it and cut it off as you are typing because there is a limit on characters in a blog title and plus you probably have figured out that this portion of this blog entry or should i say title is not actually part of the title because you have probably ran your mouse cursor over this section and the font did not turn another colour as a link would okay and i just realized that typing like this is similar to christopher boones thinking from the curious incident of the dog in the night-time by mark haddon because he frequently switches topics between the book story and thoughts in his head and i think that this is pretty cool because it gives the reader an insight to what happens in chris' smart-ass head as he tries to find out who killed wellington and just so you know wellington is mrs shears' dog but you don't know who she is so read the book but its stupid because you find out the answer two-thirds way through the book but i guess thats okay because that means theres more to happen and what the hell can i expect okay so if you read all of this run-on bullshit then i salute you because i just wasted a good amount of your time which could have been devoted to more important things like a physics lab which is what i should really really really be doing right now but i have decided not to because i thought that i needed a break but i really dont im just a really lazy person and felt like writing random thoughts down like this so um i just checked out what this blog entry or should i say title looks like and i was reading it and halfway through my eyes started to hurt because of this gleaming white font so i guess this is karma or something because i tried to waste your time but now my eyes hurt from reading this ridiculously long blog entry or should i say title yeah so i think i should stop here and as you can see punctuation is pretty important and it appears that i forgot to add in a couple of punctuation marks so here are some punctuation marks to compensate for my deliberate mistakes ......,,,,,,,,,'''''''""""""",..,'.,';,'";,'":';,';";,,;';..;'.;'..:.:...';,';,';, oh and i hope you get around to reading this because i know that other new blog entries will appear over this blog entry in your updated blogs list and is it even called an updated blogs list i don't know but you should know what i am talking about ....,;';';,...',,,;,',,'"",;,.',;"';,.;,'',',;,.;',;.',;';,'.;',;'',',.;,. oh so it appears that the updated blogs list does in fact update a blog entry even after it has been edited following its original post time but that doesnt sound like it makes much sense