condemned to nothingness

i remember that one time when my legs were paralyzed.
i ran for hours on end the previous day, my mind free from any of its surroundings.
and i also bled. a lot. a white shirt turned red, like submerging it into wine.
with crawling as the only means of travel,
i collapse desperately.

true story ololololol!
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i've been reading Life of Pi a bit recently, and i predict it to be one of the stepping stones for my, um, self-proclaimed "religious journey" or "religious pondering". now this doesn't necessarily mean that you'll find me at the end of life's road as a priest; rather, i've been inquiring many questions about (my) faith (such great timing, isn't it? with camp coming up soon...).

i have a load of shit to worry about in the upcoming days. music ministry band practices, a ton of physics studying, lunar lander-assembling, piano practicing. that's a lot man. i hope i can get through this week and have a successful weekend.

speaking of physics, goddamn, i think i wasted ~1hr last night "reading" about cosmology, theoretical physics, and quantum mechanics that i barely understand but found to be very very very very interesting. it was like reading an incomprehensible language, but i was so immersed in its intellectual beauty. such scientifical topics pose some serious cerebellum-tingling questions. it's amazing. have i blogged about this before? i'm pretty sure i have. lol.

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wow i can barely even fucking talk to you, so just continue to treat me like your fucking peasant.






cheesin' me

interrupting cow

LMAO

snow

Main Entry:

¹snow

Pronunciation:

\ˈsnō\

Function:

noun

Usage:

often attributive

Etymology:

Middle English, from Old English snāw; akin to Old High German snēo snow, Latin niv-, nix, Greek nipha (accusative)

Date:

before 12th century

1 a: precipitation in the form of small white ice crystals formed directly from the water vapor of the air at a temperature of less than 32°F (0°C) b (1): a descent or shower of snow crystals (2): a mass of fallen snow crystals
2: something resembling snow: as a: a dessert made of stiffly beaten whites of eggs, sugar, and fruit pulp snow> b: a usually white crystalline substance that condenses from a fluid phase as snow does snow> c slang (1): cocaine (2): heroin d: small transient light or dark spots on a television screen

— snow·less \-ləs\ adjective

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WHYYYYYY?????

men gnawed their tongues in agony

yo i like this semester a lot.

it's got physics, which, while not at this current stage, will eventually tie into cosmology. cosmology is sick. and cosmology also has ties with philosophy. sickest things ever. speaking of philosophy, i was reading up about that "if a tree falls in a forest and no one is there to hear it, does it make a sound" business. i love that kind of philosophical thought. you may say that it makes a sound, but who is there to prove it? etc etc. and in a more general sense, "can something exist without being perceived?" what a sick question. that one makes me think a lot. not gonna elaborate much on that since my views/opinions are still primitive, full of flaws. lol

there's also world religions, and none of that one-sided christian education bullshit. i feel that my mind is now so much more open-minded, thanks to this grade 11 course. the grade 9 and 10 religion courses (i think "christian" courses is a more fitting name) were probably the most boring courses in my high school history.

mr. marentette isn't the slightest bit interesting, but the english language sure is. the language, not the course. free writing is something i like to do, although i wouldn't do it every day. practicing writing creativity is fun.

music.... ololololol

it's kinda like a puzzle. with a million pieces. i have all of the pieces, but i just need to know how to put them together. it'll take a while, but the end result will definitely be rewarding. now where do i start...

here is a title just for the sake of making it easier for you to get to this entry when it shows up in your updated blogs list

but i really do not think that this title will show up in your updated blogs list because i added this title after i had posted this entry which initially had no title and so therefore this title is completely superfluous and negligible as you did not click it to get to this entry in the first place and instead you clicked on "Tired Mind" in your updated blogs list which took you to this page and now you are reading some random bullshit that kevin felt like writing because it made him feel clever that he involved the entry title with the entry also connecting with the usage of blogger by other users which is totally irrelevant to the following picture which is a graphical representation of kevins personality traits which was developed by mypersonality.info which is a website where people can take personality tests to find out more about themselves which is stupid because people should know who they are in the first place and they should not use an internet personality test website to find out who they are oh and also i used this font because i am so smart and it looks like this is part of the title but it is not because if you try and type a title that is as long as this then blogger will not accept it and cut it off as you are typing because there is a limit on characters in a blog title and plus you probably have figured out that this portion of this blog entry or should i say title is not actually part of the title because you have probably ran your mouse cursor over this section and the font did not turn another colour as a link would okay and i just realized that typing like this is similar to christopher boones thinking from the curious incident of the dog in the night-time by mark haddon because he frequently switches topics between the book story and thoughts in his head and i think that this is pretty cool because it gives the reader an insight to what happens in chris' smart-ass head as he tries to find out who killed wellington and just so you know wellington is mrs shears' dog but you don't know who she is so read the book but its stupid because you find out the answer two-thirds way through the book but i guess thats okay because that means theres more to happen and what the hell can i expect okay so if you read all of this run-on bullshit then i salute you because i just wasted a good amount of your time which could have been devoted to more important things like a physics lab which is what i should really really really be doing right now but i have decided not to because i thought that i needed a break but i really dont im just a really lazy person and felt like writing random thoughts down like this so um i just checked out what this blog entry or should i say title looks like and i was reading it and halfway through my eyes started to hurt because of this gleaming white font so i guess this is karma or something because i tried to waste your time but now my eyes hurt from reading this ridiculously long blog entry or should i say title yeah so i think i should stop here and as you can see punctuation is pretty important and it appears that i forgot to add in a couple of punctuation marks so here are some punctuation marks to compensate for my deliberate mistakes ......,,,,,,,,,'''''''""""""",..,'.,';,'";,'":';,';";,,;';..;'.;'..:.:...';,';,';, oh and i hope you get around to reading this because i know that other new blog entries will appear over this blog entry in your updated blogs list and is it even called an updated blogs list i don't know but you should know what i am talking about ....,;';';,...',,,;,',,'"",;,.',;"';,.;,'',',;,.;',;.',;';,'.;',;'',',.;,. oh so it appears that the updated blogs list does in fact update a blog entry even after it has been edited following its original post time but that doesnt sound like it makes much sense

pigeon

you gave your statement of departure
and it was like i couldn't see you through my aperture
reachin, stretchin the ends of my hands, my fingertips
"return to me now," but i slip
pound into the ground, face first face down, drownin
in your absence
drink it away with absinthe
you've been a friend since our eyes witnessed
each other's, we put our best in this
it was in my best interest that i was invovled in your business
i insist that you leave like this
just spend the last minutes
i feared that you disappeared into the near future, were you sure?
of making this decision
slicing incisions in your life time
hope to see you soon times
to shoot lines and
talk lives, 'til the fine sand
of the hourglass
dropped to our last
moment
stay close and
don't keep the foes in
keep hittin' the tens
cuz i'll never see you again

flood II

yo so wtf is a blog. i don't even write shit here anymore. olololol

last week was pretty damn stressful. i had the motor project to worry about the most, as well as a ton of useless english questions that i had to do for marks, and piano homework which is really time-consuming and relatively tedious. after wednesday it was just a breeze though, since we just watched movies in religion and didn't do much in other classes.

friday was fun and was a great way to start the march break. chilled with josh t, mike, jestine, and dino for the night at BR (:D), toys 'r' us, square one (walters, wal-mart, etc), and subway. came home late, parents were probably pissed, but they were sleeping so w/e.

saturday was interesting. woke up, was instantly told to do some fuckin' chores, then got ready for bowling. which was gay. which was a drag. it started at 12 and ended at around 5, lol. yeah. then we went to eastgate mall or w/e (our family calls it dixie park) and had dinner there. after that, we dropped our parents off at some restaurant for dinner with family friends, then dino and i drove to church (~20 minutes late ololololol) and sang in the choir. then drove around and loafted for the rest of the night. dino and i watched The F Word (one of chef Gordon Ramsay's show) and it is fuckin hilarious, and greatly entertaining. the food looks absolutely fantastic, leaving you hungry, and the dialogue (hence the show title) is outrageously funny.

today (yesterday?) was a loaft. slept til 2, woke up to dino fixing us breakfast. chocolate chip pancakes w/ cheese omelette. mmmmmm. walked chewie with dino at like 4:30, then did nothing til 7, which is when we ate out.

mhm so it's march break, and there are a couple of things i need to accomplish, such as: get my g1, write some music, do my piano homework, physics lab, finish learning this piano song, take care of chewie, work out?, sleep, etc. sure looks like a lot to do, for a chill-expected week.

goddamn i am tired.

the dark side of the moon

that's all.

it can mean a lot of things.

but... i guess Pink Floyd is damn awesome.